Thinking About Things (I Think Too Much) in Catch 22

I just said I love you to a girl I haven't seen since December,
I remember,
she was close enough to me.
Now I'm growing up and throwing 'round some words to reassure,
that I'll always love her,
because I loved her once before.
And I don't care cuz I'm backed into a corner,
and lifen's not fair,
so I'm breakin' all the rules.
Day by day don't walk away.
"you've got a good thing going on," I tell myself it's like throw it all away or stick around.
Around away with it I don't wanna stay with it.
Pass it on.
Be strong,
hold on,
not long ago and every day is the same thing,
tomorrow is the same thing.
I hold my head in my hand.
[CHORUS] Everything that I do,
everything that I say,
everything that I am,
everything seems so wrong.
Am I dramatic or am I empathizing with myself?
If it's selfish,
I don't want it,
but I know it too damn well to forget it.
Forget it.
I don't want it anymore,
and I just said I love you to a girl I loved before.